Hey my Mj’s ! Today I’m going to peel another layer of my vulnerability . The Truth is I am having a hard time cutting salt and sugar of my diet due to my disease and diabètes.
The Truth is I have always been, this girl who loves to eat like A LOT .
Having this need to put my health into priority is great but when it comes to the fact that I should not eat between meals , no snacks and the fact that a smoothie is considered as a desert that I can drink only as lunch as a desert shift a lot my habits . Moreover the need of meat in my diet is making me frustrated as I had even started to be vegan .
I think that when things are just coming to you way like that it disturbs all plans .
These new parameters are things I have never thought of and this feeling of being empty and tired of being sick and tired .
I am doing the best I can to be positive and choose joy but some things are just a tough pill to swallow.
Not to mention , a family that love to comment the fact that I am now « obese » and yes this is another thing because , when you see a big person you think she eats crap all day but what if she is Under cortisol and it increases her sugar level ,uhm ?
I am tired of feeling disconnected because people see me smiling and think that I am confident and have no insecurity or ugly tears but I do !
The fact that I can’t have a regular job and have to stay in my parents’ house for the summer might seem like the perfect holidays but it is a nightmare because I feel dependant and tired of being sick and tired .
Luckily I know that I am not alone and so many people are going through health issues .So I decided to start this self-acceptance Journey and to try to cast ALL my anxiety on the lord and make of these lemons a sparking limonade !
There are things I can no longer do or eat and side effects of my pills but I am determined to chase the rainbows and the spark of hope !
Mary Jokes 😉